This is really awful I can't remember who sit with me while Mylon ran home to get a few things for me...But I do know that I have been blessed with an awesome support system. My friends and family are a wonderful group of people who I can never completely thank for all they have done for me!!!!!
I was continuing to get worse, this morning my left side was starting to show signs of growing weakness. I always know when my husband is worrying, he gets quieter then normal. The Doctors were saying they could not figure out why I was getting worse - all the test showed me to get in good health. They were giving us no answers.
You always wonder if you are doing things right, you always ask could I have been a better friend, a better parent - I still don't have any answers but I do know that I am blessed with loving children do nothing that I have done but because has bless them to love me as I love them. For it was truly a wonderful surprise to wake from a nap to see my oldest standing by the bed. It made my day....
The doctors have decided to do another catscan and multiple MRIs on my brain so I am wheeled out for those tests. By now I must admit things are becoming a little blurry and the hours are running together. My god-sisters and friends were waiting as I returned from those tests. My god-sister Kat had been with us in ER but we didn't want to worry Lorna, because she was and had been sick herself but of course she didn't believe what Mylon and Kat were telling her, she had to see for herself.
Still no answers - everything looks normal, but like Job, my tears poured out to God!
As I continued to get worse and lose mobility in my left side my husband stayed by side and I thought played on his ipad as I slept, but he was searching for answers. He was inputting things like "I walked yesterday, I can't walk to day", "I am getting weaker by the hour", "both my feet are tingling", etc....He stayed with me most of the night, but the nurses convinced him to go home.
I wasn't sleeping at very long interval - but as I cried on Wednesday, I prayed on Thursday Night. For I knew God as a healer and even if he chose not to heal me I needed him to give me the peace and strength to understand and deal with whatever my end would be. As I prayed and Mylon prayed at home, I truly believe that God touched and spoke with us both. God gave me peace and assurance that I was already healed, just trust Him and I received a prayer from Mylon that ended with Habakkuk 3:17-18 "Though the fig tree should not blossom And there be no fruit on the vines, Though the yield of the olive should fail And the fields produce no food, Though the flock should be cut off from the fold And there be no cattle in the stalls, Yet I will exult in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.…" I will walk by faith not by sight!
I was continuing to get worse, this morning my left side was starting to show signs of growing weakness. I always know when my husband is worrying, he gets quieter then normal. The Doctors were saying they could not figure out why I was getting worse - all the test showed me to get in good health. They were giving us no answers.
You always wonder if you are doing things right, you always ask could I have been a better friend, a better parent - I still don't have any answers but I do know that I am blessed with loving children do nothing that I have done but because has bless them to love me as I love them. For it was truly a wonderful surprise to wake from a nap to see my oldest standing by the bed. It made my day....
The doctors have decided to do another catscan and multiple MRIs on my brain so I am wheeled out for those tests. By now I must admit things are becoming a little blurry and the hours are running together. My god-sisters and friends were waiting as I returned from those tests. My god-sister Kat had been with us in ER but we didn't want to worry Lorna, because she was and had been sick herself but of course she didn't believe what Mylon and Kat were telling her, she had to see for herself.
Still no answers - everything looks normal, but like Job, my tears poured out to God!
As I continued to get worse and lose mobility in my left side my husband stayed by side and I thought played on his ipad as I slept, but he was searching for answers. He was inputting things like "I walked yesterday, I can't walk to day", "I am getting weaker by the hour", "both my feet are tingling", etc....He stayed with me most of the night, but the nurses convinced him to go home.
I wasn't sleeping at very long interval - but as I cried on Wednesday, I prayed on Thursday Night. For I knew God as a healer and even if he chose not to heal me I needed him to give me the peace and strength to understand and deal with whatever my end would be. As I prayed and Mylon prayed at home, I truly believe that God touched and spoke with us both. God gave me peace and assurance that I was already healed, just trust Him and I received a prayer from Mylon that ended with Habakkuk 3:17-18 "Though the fig tree should not blossom And there be no fruit on the vines, Though the yield of the olive should fail And the fields produce no food, Though the flock should be cut off from the fold And there be no cattle in the stalls, Yet I will exult in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.…" I will walk by faith not by sight!
